Fear, Anxiety, and hopeless ahead!

It's 7: 25 AM exactly in the morning, date 05/20/2022. It has been 4-5 days that one thing is striking in my mind, actually two. And that is about the grade. Yes, you heard it right-the grades of university. 

I have come from the place where the facilities are not enough and the opportunities where we are not told to dream big and see the big picture in the screen of our life. It was very difficult for me to get into this prestigious university of Nepal. After the tough examination and the equally competitive interview, I finally made my place here. 
From the first day of my university life, I was open more than I used to be before. I changed my mindset completely. I started to see everything in a positive way and in a more hopeful way. The course started with some experienced faculties here and I was as excited as I was in the day first.

Who doesn't fear exam? Perhaps almost all of us and so do I. I am a scholarship student here in my university for which I should get at least 3.5 GPA to be eligible for the scholarship award. And the irony is that I won't be eligible for the scholarship in the coming four years, if I don't maintain 3.5 GPA in the first semester which I literally messed up due to lack of proper information about the marking criteria from the faculty members. Now, I have understood the way they mark and how can we get marks. But there is no way for me to regret than. Because the end term has started and I can do nothing but regret for not being able to understand the format of the university education.

 
I want one more chance for me to show my abilities and prove myself that I am capable for the scholarship and I am also one of the hardworking, dedicated student who has some ambitions and goals for which I have chosen this university so that I can fulfill  dreams. So if you give me only one chance then, I won't let my words down and I extremely want this chance and it's my need too. Trust me I won't let this chance go away and I will make it the worth of me.